How un-cool is that? I am making an english blog now but with a romanian title! More than that, I used a romanian word that doesn't even exist in romanian. I feel now like a little devil (already that messenger smiley appears somewhere inside my brain) - well, at least here I allow myself to feel this way and to do things like that. And guess what will follow next: I'm NOT going to explain it! HA!
I know everybody will figure out the meaning along the way anyways (we all heard about Google Translate, right?!)...
This is a blog in which I will complain. This is a blog in which I will bitch about things. This is a blog in which I will show my resentment. This is a blog in which I will say whatever goes through my head. This is a blog which will say:"fuck you!". This is a blog in which no "nice, goody-goody" stuff will colour the lines. This is a blog in which every single individual that has ever been annoyed, stressed out, frustrated, crazy, mad, pissed off, sad, unaccomplished, wronged, mentally injured, blinded by the stupidity around him, terrified by the long hours filled with the emptiness of unmeaningfull work, numbed in his "comfy" chair, crushed under the long speeches in which one says NOTHING, and, my personal favorite, "brainwashed", will be able to find himself.
I have worked now for 2 years and 2 months in a corporation and am currently working for 1 year and 9 months in another one and in all those years I have found myself plenty of times asking myself the same question: "But, Why?", and I have never found a good answer... Asking myself "why should I do this or that?" or "why should I behave like this or like that?" or "why should I say this or that?", takes me to that good old "Why?Why?Why?"- Analysis, and this is how I end-up to the cause of all distresses: it's because of the SYSTEM!!! But then I went even deeper and deeper and thought: but who is creating this so called "System", and the answer fired back at me: PEOPLE! People like you and me, society. Have you ever noticed that if anything goes bad, we always blame it on others? It's always either "the system", or the "society", or the "aliens" that are watching us from outerspace. But it's never us! Well... I came here to complain about the fact that I am to blame! I am to blame for everything screwed up in this world! I am to blame for everything that does not suits my purposes, my goals, my desires! And I complain about the fact that I am to blame for letting myself being the carrier of the blame! :D
HA! I laugh with a mefistofelian smile within me, but even this smile is sorrow...
I add my comment here too: The sad part is that I think I have given up on swimming against the flow. At best, I think I am simply floating, like a piece crap in a toilet bowl..neither going flushing with the flow neither trying to climb out! Torn between the needs of living and the needs of achieving. It was much easier in High School and University. I could go against many things, live like a hippie, quit jobs after a week, hell, even after a day! There was always financial backup to help my rebellion. Now there isn't. It's just me, my fridge, and my rented flat...
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